Fainting has been on and off for 23 years.
Because of this I didn’t start driving until 2018.
In 2019, I spent a week on the cardiology ward because of it, my license was revoked and I was finally given a diagnosis; Neurocardiogenic syncope and was told “There’s no cure or treatment for it”.
This began the start of depression, again and was put on antidepressants and a CBT course.
Eventually, I became fed up with the darkness, I was ready to accept the pain and difficulties and I literally cried out, “Help me Lord!”
I began reaching out, admitted self-harming and asked for prayer.
It was hard enough to admit that I had a problem myself, but saying it out loud was harder!
But she was supportive and prayerful.
Philippians 4.13 I can do all this through him
who gives me strength.
This verse helped me to keep going, reminding me that even when I felt weak physically or emotionally, through Him and the Holy Spirit He was holding on to me and keeping me strong to carry on.
I went to a friend’s church with her.
There, I went forward for prayer about the Neurocardiogenic syncope.
As they prayed, I did too.
Then I heard the lady praying about emotions; I hadn’t mentioned anything like that to her!
After, I felt such a sense of relief, peace and freedom, I just knew I was healed!
I soon realized the syncope hadn’t been healed, but the toxic emotions definitely had!
No more, did I feel that despair, lack of control or the darkness that I previously had.
Since then I’ve had circumstances, including the NCS episodes, that would have usually sent me to that mindset of despair, but the Lord has taught me how to overcome these & keep me in His peace.
Isaiah 40.30-1 Even youths grow tired and
weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be
This verse was pretty literal “you will not faint” even though I did faint He always lifted me back up again and carried me emotionally and spiritually through those times.
Similar to the footprints poem.
He asked & guided me to write on Faith and mental health, which includes my experiences and how I overcame these in order to help others.
I blog at www.mindfulofchrist.net and have published ‘Christian based Cognitive Behavioural Therapy and how to become Mindful of Christ.’
Even when I felt weak physically or emotionally, through Him and the Holy Spirit He was holding on to me and keeping me strong to carry on.
You will not faint.
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