There was a time that I had strayed far away from God.
I made all the wrong decisions and was living a life that was not right for me at all.
I was in a marriage where there was constant fighting.
There was drugs and alcohol and everything in my life had become one big mess.
For so long I truly wanted to leave that world but I didn’t remember how.
I was too far away from God.
All I knew was that I thought I had messed up too much.
That I was unworthy and I did not deserve his help so I found it very difficult to ask for his help.
That went on for a couple more years and till finally I just broke down one night and just poured my heart to him.
I surrendered it all to him.
And the very next morning I woke with the courage that I had been trying to muster for 4 years.
The courage to pack a bag and walk out that door, to turn my back on my marriage, my home, and that lifestyle.
Still, I didn’t feel I deserved a new life, but I believe that God loved me enough that he still had one for me.
Without a place to go and no one to turn to, I just walked out the door and started walking.
That was the beginning of a whole new life for me and I have never once looked back.
The life I live now is so incredible, so wonderful compared to the life I had been living where I didn’t even know where we were going to stay at times..
..times that I was afraid to open my mouth because I knew it would be a big fight.
I didn’t know how I could get through the week or the day or even the hour without drugs or alcohol.
It was that bad.
Thank you Lord that all those days are over now, but I had to trust God.
My mistake in those last few years was that I would pray for God to send someone to help me.
I prayed that prayer for years, but nothing changed.
Now, don’t get me wrong, He will send others to help at times, but I learned that I had to put my faith completely in Him, not in a person.
When I realized that, everything in my life began to change and I am so very grateful.
I want people to know that God can and will get you through addiction.
It is not easy, but he will, if you give it all to Him.
And also, if someone is in an abusive relationship, so many times their abuse has worked overtime to make them feel unworthy and unloved, so that they won’t leave.
I want them to know that they are absolutely not worthless and God loves them no matter what.
He will protect you and keep you and give you a new life.
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