Trust me, I get it. I, too, find myself having the urge and encouraging myself “this will be the last time”. My body will tense up while flashes of the past play rapidly in my mind. Encouraging me to release my suppression. I never understand where or how I got there, again. I know I […]Read more "The Affair"
Imagine every thing you ever feared would happen, happened. Now, imagine the only thing you could do in response is grow and continue on with life. Some would say that’s the sum of life, it’s not fair. Simply put that has been my truth for the past two weeks. At first, I allowed anger to […]Read more "What Are You Going To Do About It?"
Every year, it never fails. This is the certain time that I think about the foundation my first love set. When choosing to embark in a new relationship or rekindling an old, the people who I allow to enter into my life know of him. It doesn’t matter where I am or who I am […]Read more "My First Love"
Today, I’m going to do it! I’ve decided today is the day. I may cry. I can shake or scream. I don’t care how hard it gets. It doesn’t matter how ridiculous I look while doing it. I’m going to put one foot in front of the other. I will get it done. I’m going […]Read more "I Double Dog Dare You!"
I was about fourteen when I first decided to end my life. Unbeknownst to my parents, I began dating a guy for a few days and was happy to have a close guy friend. For reasons I will reveal later, I will call him “Ced”. The forbidden relationship made me feel superior! The mere thought […]Read more "Hurt, Now Healed"
“God, I pray that you remove the desire of marriage from my heart. The more I think of it my heart breaks from the thought of not knowing when or if it will ever happen. I would like to get married one day, but I can’t fathom why it’s not my time. If it’s your […]Read more "Waiting Well"
When I was sixteen, I found out I was adopted. As I sit here, I recall reading the aged white piece of paper that would abruptly reveal my truth. I remember the way my body tensed up as I opened the unexpected. The fluttering of butterflies dancing in my stomach and me reading the topline […]Read more "That’s Crazy, But Humbling."
It’s 2019, “New Year, New Me” was nearly ten years ago, yet it doesn’t feel much has changed in your life. As you scroll on social media, you notice one of your classmate’s most recent posts. It’s a collage of pictures with the caption, “He asked, so I said yes!”. You double tap and type […]Read more "I’m 27, Now What?"
Ever notice when you’re late it seems like every thing and everyone moves slower than you. You can be driving in traffic while time and cars are against your every move. It doesn’t matter how fast you cut in and out of traffic you end up at red light after red light. As adversity kicks […]Read more "Find A Solution, Stop Complaining To Everyone!"